Visual versus verbal
This is something that I’ve reflected on numerous times for the last fifteen years, or so. Or, at least the last five years. The last X number of years. 😀 It’s no news to me, but it is quite interesting. Especially when it comes to being true to oneself, rather than adapting and conforming to ideals/agreements that doesn’t work for you.
I’ve always been a visual person. I think through images. I understand the best through metaphores. I see patterns, I associate very quickly.
When Ingegerd died, I desperately wanted to be normal. I did everything I could do tip over to my dad’s way of functioning. He was a very rational man, with rational thought, no room for superstition, spirituality or any of the sorts. I began thinking verbally. I forgot how to think through visual means.
I think that’s one of the reasons why I fell into that extremely long, deep depressions. I was untrue to myself. I surpressed parts of me that are vital for my well-being. I can’t remember when I began reflecting over this, and started working on regaining my own way of thinking. But when I did – I felt like me again.
My mind is, I think, the thing about me which I am mostly proud of. In my opinion, it is my greatest asset. My mind gives me so much, it is multi-facetted, circular in every direction simultaneously. It gives me access to creativity, intellect, spirituality, rational thought to a degree, and it does make me who I am. I couldn’t be prouder.
I just had to write this down somewhere. I want to tell someone about it as well, if I can find someone who is willing to listen – and understand.
Oh, and a thought that occurred to me a moment ago; when I journey to meet my power animals, I always follow the images they present me with. My thought just now was; I think I’m going to start following images presented to me in my physical reality as well. For a change, instead of constantly resisting reality.