Expanding
This is so weird. I feel like I am expanding in a way that I’m not really used to. Only this year, I’ve discovered two or three new interests. I’m not surprised at all, and they have been lurking for years and years, but now, they seem to manifest themselves a bit more clearly.
Two of these interests, I have already begun. One of them is the study of art grotesque. The other one is storytelling. Both of these are done through blogging.
And then, recently, I have an urge to learn more about herbs. I am interested in it due to my desire to grow my hair back, after chemo therapy. I have already begun, by creating and using different oils and treatments that will hopefully work wonders for the rate my hair grows. Time will tell. But that’s what awoke my interest in herbs, oils, how to use them, et cetera.
In a sense, I might become a witch. 😀
Some of my friends would say that it’s about time. Or that I’ve been one all along, I just didn’t know or practice. Or that it is yet another shamanic practise that I now bring into my life.
And I have also decided that I am going to live in my cottage in the forest around the time I’m 50 years old. By then, I’ll be there. No idea how, or where, but I’ll have found my place to be by then.
It feels like I am getting closer and closer to living life like I am supposed to. Like I am expanding my life to be full – not empty. And I cannot even begin to express just how grateful I am for this.
And that, despite the fact that summer is intervening with my recovery and healing process from my chemo and radiation treatments. The temperature is messing with my body, and I find it very difficult to know and separate what is what, between reactions to heat, and post-cancer-treatments physical stuff.
One thing at a time, though.