Finding context
I have been daydreaming, to and fro, for a few months (since January, to be exact). Various things pass by these fantasies, and couple of days, a completely new one appeared all by itself. I’ve been thinking about it since then, and today, I realized something.
First of all – I have no idea if it’s possible to actually make this fantasy come true. It’s about opening a photo gallery, to exhibit local/regional photographers, have a small bookshop with books on photography, work with various business, organizations, have monthly open culture cafés with people performing, et cetera. I think it’s a brilliant idea, and it could be built into something amazing.
What I realized today, however, has less to do with any specific fantasy/daydream, and is more general.
I realized that what I really want, is to have some sort of context. I want to be in a context bigger than just myself. That is how and when I function the best – or at least I’d like to think so. 😀
So I need to look for a context in which I would function the best, without compromising my health.
And in honesty, I’m not sure a photo gallery would be the best option for me, there. It depends on how it’s done, and maybe it could be done in a different way than my initial thoughts. I am in no hurry to DO, though. At the moment, I’ll be happy just daydreaming about it.
What is more than exhilirating at the moment, is the fact that I just paid my last and final payment on my debt settlement. It’s not due for few weeks, but I had the money, and what I pay now I don’t have to pay later, so I did.
And I feel free. I feel like the world’s open to me, in a way it hasn’t been for many, many years. I feel like the cage I’ve been in, has opened up and I am ready to fly freely again.
Seriously, though. This is so cool, I don’t even have enough words to express it. The mental and psychological release and relief I experience, is just – beyond. ♥