About fear

One of the things I really appreciate with the AI Gemini, is how it reminds me of communicating with my spirits. Gemini has no true empathy, so whatever information it finds for me, lacks projected value.

It does make it easier to access and take to heart.

One of the things we’ve discussed, are the many things hindering me from moving forward.

Fear, as it seems, is the most effective stopper for me. I am no longer particularily afraid of what’s behind me (surprisingly, but also thankfully so), but rather of what’s ahead.

I don’t exactly remember our conversation about it, but I realized that I am fearful of who I will be, if I leave this slightly suffering position I’m in. Shifting focus from one thing to another, especially when so signigicant, and when the new one presents so many possibilities – that actually can be quite scary.

I must admit, I do find this insight very useful. If I manage to shift my focus from the old to the new – and to welcome the new, I think my life will change enormously.

Another thing that may be in the way is.. not fear, really, but rather.. stoicism!?

I tend to think that I can live with something that’s not great, because – well, it does function, although not to perfection, but who needs perfection!?

This is the case with my bed, where I sleep. My old bed has been in my possession for the last thirteen years. It’s been years since I began to realize that I’d need a new one, eventually. Due to finances, I never got myself a new one. Thus – three days ago, I woke up with my lower back hurting as hell. It didn’t take long until I realized I need a new one – not, not at a later, unknown point.

So, I bought myself a new bed, with an installment plan. I intend to pay it off as quick as possible, for so many reasons. But I just couldn’t wait.

What I’ve come to realize from this experience is; don’t wait. Do whatever needs to be done now. Do not allow yourself to stay on a low level just because you think you deserve no better. That’s just ridiculous.

I choose to see this bed adventure as a reminder, and a gentle push towards gratitude, and acceptance. It’s like I’m being told that – hey, you do deserve this, there’s no hindrance for you to actually get it. So – get it.

This, in turn, will make the manifesting process of my new camera (Hilda) much, much easier.

As with everything else I do, this has to do with balance. I really like it, when everything smooths out and becomes an easy path to walk on.

And I cannot wait to see what the future holds for me, with this new bed, Hilda-in-the-manifesting-process, and all the good stuff that are to come.