Manifesting equipment

This is extremely important to me, on so many levels. Not only do I need new photography equipment, I also need to rise to meet myself where I’m at, presently.

And considering how I’ve grown – far beyond what I would ever have thought possible, this is a necessity. I no longer feel that I’m ok with having equipment that at least works, for now.

No. I want equipment I can trust and rely on. I want equipment with which I can push myself further when it comes to my photography.

Which is why I have named my new yet-not-in-my-hands camera, Hilda.

And as I am in the proess of manifesting, I thought I should write down a few things I want to do with the company of Hilda.

One of the things I’d like to do is get rid of the problem with dust on the sensor. I cannot wait to photograph without knowing I need to retouch every image from loads of dust.

I am also looking forward to trusting that Hilda produces raw material that is whole, and does not go broken just because it wants to.

Another thing I’ll be highly appreciative of is a new computer that will meet the needs and standards of any Adobe apps that I use – mainly Bridge, Photoshop, Indesign and Acrobat Reader. With emphasis on Photoshop and Indesign.

All these things are necessary for me to trust, and work for me. The process is important, and at almost 50 years of age, I finally feel that I am good enough to have equipment that carries me forward, not pulls me backwards. There’s quite the difference.

But – I also want to use Hilda. One of the things I want to do with her, is the skull project I’ve been wanting to do for quite some time. With the camera I use now, there’s no use to even begin considering all its faults. I need Hilda to get started.

So Hilda, wherever you are. I am so ready to meet you, make your aquaintance, getting to know you, and start working with you. The things you and I will do together will be remarkable, memorable, reach a lot of people, make me feel amazing, make you perform and create amazing things…

There can really only be greatness with our relationship.

So I bid you welcome into my life, with everything that’s needed for you and I to start our journey together. The sooner, the better.

Because, you see, you’re not only a tool, dear Hilda. You are the main reason why I live and breathe, you are what makes me who I am. Without you, I am unnecessarily restrained and held back. With you, I am free, I can be creative and do what I love the most.

So you are more than welcome to enter my life. You and your accompanying tools (lenses, computer et cetera). I cannot wait to see what you and I will create together.

What I am about to say is difficult for me, but I am working on it.

All I need to know is what I want.
I do not need to know how.

Only that, and what I want. That’s enough.

Welcome home, Hilda.