When my power animal first approached me, I was contacted by a human few days later. A guy who told me he’d been approached by the very same power animal. He said she’d looked at him, nodded and then left. As if thinking to herself that he’d do. For a short time, he was very helpful in regards to this rebirth I am about to go through.
Unfortunately, we’ve lost contact, and I don’t know why. He vanished into thin air, and I haven’t heard from him in months. Luckily enough, he told me enough about rebirth to get me through this. At least I hope so.
At first, I thought this rebirth would be a ceremony, sort of. A one-time-event that would transform me, somehow. Now, I’m not so sure. It seems more like a process. When I was introduced to the idea by my power animal, I got the feeling it was supposed to happen in a near future – and that it’d be done somewhere around.. now, actually. I did get the feeling it’d be done somewhere around April. And since we are now in April, I must assume it’s time.
They have been quite absent, my guides, as of late. I get the tiniest clues every now and then, like from the Lioness. Couple of days ago, I was informed that I need to introduce colours in my life. Elemental colours.
And the thing is; as of a few months, I’ve been into crafts. I’ve begun creating necklaces with glass pearls, mainly. It’s so much fun, and I’m even considering to start selling.
So, I have now ordered even more pearls. In other colours than black and red, which are the colours I personally enjoy the most. This is something I consider as some sort of preparations for moving into my new life. That’s what I tell them – that I am ready to move into my new life, my new self. Obviously, jewelry is part of that, somehow. Crafts, at least. Who knew – I sure as hell didn’t. Returning to pearls; I am going to create a necklace for myself with red, green, blue and dark gray.
These are colours I’ve chosen for the elements: red (instead of orange or yellow) for fire, passion and action, dark blue for water, emotions and movement, green (instead of brown) for earth, growth, stability and fertility, and that dark gray (instead of white or clear glass) for air, which I take the liberty of interpreting as intellect, but also willpower and an enormous power to start a movement of something.
I even found small figurines of a (general) goddess, that I’ll be adding into this necklace. I bought enough to make perhaps three necklaces, and two of them I’ll be selling.
And I do consider all this preparations for this rebirth, this me moving into my new life. I have no idea of where it’ll take me, but I’m guessing it’ll be good.
Another, more mundane thing I’ve done lately is to reduce the dose of my medication. I do take Lithium for my bipolar diagnoses, but with all the work I’ve done for the last X number of years, I’m not sure I actually need it anymore. I spoke with my psychiatrist a few weeks back, and she agreed, so I am taking half of my previous dose. Soon, I’ll start taking that one pill every other day, and hopefully, soon, not at all.
I cannot stress enough the amount of awe I’m in, for this whole thing. I feel like I am changing by the second. The colours of those pearls I bought for my elemental necklace – in one sense they represent balance, and it feels like these colours are slowly taking place on my inside. That I am expanding with colours. It’s a very strange, but pleasant feeling. It makes me feel more – whole. More alive.
And in that respect, I must also adress just how much I appreciate all this. I had no idea a power animal could create such powerful changes, just by showing me what to do, how to do it, and help me connect the dots I haven’t seen by myself (and I’m very good at connecting dots). I really hope she stays with me for a very, very long time, because oh, man… She has really made a difference for me. I.. just – wow.
I think that my power animal is just what I needed to walk this path properly. And I also think that I’ll never stray from this path again. Being in this place makes me feel so good. And being in the beginning of this journey, I think it can only get better. Perhaps I should make an effort to ask her what is expected of me. Am I supposed to become something – like a shaman? I don’t think so, it doesn’t feel like it. But it feels like there is a point to all this, and I’d like to know what it is.
At some point, not sure of exactly when, I was told by someone (one of my guides) that I should be a storyteller. Not really sure what that means either. Does it mean being a rolemodel? Does it mean writing books? Keep blogging? Start a podcast? What story do I tell, and how do I do it? And who is going to listen to it?
Having been around my power animal for some six months or so, I have no doubt that the answer will come to me, eventually. Every other process she has started, has connected with other dots, so I’m sure this will too. I’m not used to having this sort of trust, but it does feel good.
I am so ready to move into my new life. My body, my mind and my soul – my trinity, are so very ready, to live. Together. ♥
