Current wishlist
I’ve never really learned how to manipulate the Law of Attraction, like Abraham (Esther Hicks) describes. It just doesn’t work for me. For me personally, I think the main reason is I have way too many negative thought patterns that stops me. Because it sure as hell isn’t anything wrong with what I want to manifest.
My wishlist for what I want to manifest and create for myself, hasn’t changed that much in the last ten years or so. I still want – pretty much the same things.
I want to live in a cottage, in the midst of nature – no neighbours. Just peace and quiet, me and those closest to me – which would be, my pets. Quite possibly also a man, but that’s not a necessity. At least not to live there with me.
I can see it very clearly. I can feel it. I can see and feel myself walking around, in my cottage, in my garden, in the forest surrounding all of it. There are numerous variations of how exactly I’d like to live, and I’d be good with all of them.
There’s a life waiting to be lived, and that life is mine.
The life I do have – that was mine before. Not anymore. This person who lives this life, she is who I used to be. I’m not her anymore. I am so much more.
It just struck me; I have friends who tell me I’m a witch. I am of course not a witch per se, but I do buy the general idea of it. And once that thought passed through my mind, it also struck me – I am ready to step into that life now. I haven’t been before, but I am ready now.
I am ready.
And I need to communicate this to my power animal, to my guides and spirit friends. They need to know this, so we can work together to make it happen.
Bloody hell.
I’ve never had that thought before. Never. Never have I thought or felt that I’m ready to live the life I’ve wanted for so long. Until now.
I have no idea of how to get there. I’ve always thought that what’s stopping me is money – to get the cottage I want (I haven’t found it yet), to have everything I want and need, so I can live the way I want to. And the life I want is very, very different from the life I live.
Something else that comes to mind is that to allow this to happen, I have to let go of the life I have. The idea of re-birth makes more and more sense. As does the concept of the art of letting go. I’ve been realizing this for the past week or so, due to other reasons (mainly the man I thought I was going to have, but don’t have – due to further other reasons).
So what I really need to do, then, is beginning the process of letting go. It certainly will be a project more profound than I imagined. I’m glad and lucky to have Eriena. She’ll guide me in the right direction. And I never cease to be in awe of how she knows exactly what to do, which buttons to push, which doors to open, how to connect all the dots I didn’t even know were there… She truly is amazing.
All of a sudden, I find myself with butterflies in my stomach. A bit nervous, really. Not that it won’t happen, because in one way or the other, it will. But because it will happen, in one way or the other. Somehow, I am going to live the life of my dreams, and I can’t wait. I don’t know how, but somehow, I’ll get there.
These are the feelings I want to have; peace, quiet, tranquility, joy, happiness, content, strength, comfort, bliss, love – and more. I want to live with and in nature, in that cottage. I want to merge with nature, I want magic in my life. I want to become magic, I want to create it. I want to be able to channel and direct the raw power that comes from Earth. I want to create my own, personal Nirvana – for myself, my animals, and the people I am close to.
And for once, I do think it’s actually possible. I welcome the change. ♥