The lioness
I have reason to believe that I am about to perform that rebirth I was writing about in my first post. The one I thought I’d done already, but I think I was quite mistaken in that assumption. 😀 I think there is some sort of rebirth process to be done, and it’ll happen fairly soon. Like I thought, about 5 – 6 months ago when I was first approached by my power animal.
They are quite absent again, my guides. I can almost see them, but they do not approach me. For the last week or so, I have been asking for guidance in preparation for this up-coming rebirth. I don’t feel like I’ve been given anything in particular, but today I was approached by the Lioness. A steppe lioness who was lying on brown, sunburned grass, chewing on something.
She didn’t really have anything to say – not in terms of guidance or direction, anyway. She did say one thing, though, before she left me.
Life is more than danger.
She said that in response to a thought I had (not expressed aloud to her), which in turn was a response to her saying I don’t need a rebirth, I just need to be me. My thought was; but how can you just be you in an environment that’s so dangerous.
Life is more than danger.
That’s what she said, and that is something I could most definitely use to think about.
In thinking about that, perhaps I should open up to the possibility that there is indeed more to life than – danger. I do admit to being stuck, even now, in a place where danger is always present in one way or another. Much like the lioness. And perhaps danger will always be around the corner.
But there is more to life than danger.
And if I do open up to possibilities rather than obstacles, perhaps I will reach other paths in life. Much like I want to.
Quite frankly, I don’t really know just how to perform this rebirth. It seems to consist of so many parts, and I do feel a bit overwhelmed on how to put the pieces together and make them work for me. I am hoping that my guides will give me some information and let me do the work myself as usual – but I think I do need directions. At the moment, I feel just slightly confused.
Adding to the confusion, this Lioness also mentioned caring for – babies. I still don’t understand the meaning of this. I’m too old to have babies of my own (46, presently), and I don’t want children of my own. Who am I to consider a baby, to care for?
Perhaps it’s not an actual baby – perhaps it’s the idea of having something, someone, outside of myself, to care for.
There are so many things to keep track of right now. I’ve been really tired – for months. Perhaps this is why. Feels like the emotional and spiritual growth I’m going through right now, is quite extensive. I am moving forward faster than I thought possible.
Perhaps that sense of close danger is one of the things I need to let go of. I am, after all, working on the art of letting go. I’ll need to think about that for a moment or two. Which will, of course, make me even more tired. 😀 Bloody hell.
Can life really be more than danger?
I mean, really. I’m so used to being scared, surpressing it, and pushing everything away as far as I can. But perhaps it actually can be different.
The Lioness seems to think so.