Rescue, part II
So, it’s been couple of days since my power animal informed me that she was in need of assistance. She lied. 😀 Well, depending on perspective, she told me the truth. The perspective this should be seen from, is that she mirrored the help that I actually need.
You learn something each day, for sure. The last couple of days, I learned that a – at least my power animal, can lie. I never thought of the possibility that they would do such a thing.
Perhaps lie is a harsch word. What she did, was mirror my own situation in a way that made me react, instantly. A wake up call, one might say.
I made another journey yesterday (the day after her wake up call), where I began releasing stuff that holds me back. I have no idea what it is that I am letting go of, but for once it feels like it doesn’t really matter. And it felt like letting go of a horse’s wagon filled with so much.. stuff.
To no surprise, there she was – not covered by that sticky mud. I was met by an entire entourage – most of who I know since before. It wasn’t as intense as I’ve come to know my journeys to be, but perhaps that will change with time.
After all, I’ve never journed by my own drumming before – it is a very new thing to me.
I was given few words in this journey. I was told that I am free to soar, to roam, to swim, to move in general. While these things may be true to most people, they have not been available to me, for a very, very long time (if ever).
And it such an odd experience, being told that I am actually allowed. I never believed that before, but am beginning to see and feel that there are new experiences at hand with being allowed – if “only” by myself.
One thing that came of yesterday’s journey, was that I am even more set in my belief that I am meant to live another way, but also – that it is going to happen. Perhaps not in detail as I’ve seen it inside my head, but life as it should be for me, is coming.
It’s good to know that I am on the right path.
It is also, oh so amazingly, fantastically wonderful, to reconnect with HER and the rest of them. I am fully capable of living a good life without them, and I am also feeling whole in a way I would never have dreamed possible (thanks to them). But with them, I feel full and content, in a way that I don’t, without them.
Writing about this, I feel emotional. This, too, is something that happens to a larger extent with them, than without.
Also. As usual with them, the information they give me, tends to expand into a much larger pattern than I originally think. In swedish, we have an expression that translates into “it creates rings in the water”, and I believe that’s what happening here. I am quite tired, which I believe is partly due to my brain, my mind, my full understanding, is working quite hard to unravel what they gave to me for the last couple of days.
So what originated as a rescue mission of my power animal, turned out to be something completely different. I am thrilled to have reconnected, and am going to make another journey to further my understanding of this new part of my life. I’ll keep the blog updated.