Storytelling
During on of my journeys – I don’t remember which one, or in which context – but at some point, I recieved some sort of message that contained the word storyteller. I think I am supposed to become a storyteller of some sort, I just don’t know how/when/where/why, and so on. In which context?
I’m good at writing, if being a storyteller means writing. I am very good at photography, if storytelling is supposed to be visual. I also think that the way I paint (water colour) is a way of storytelling, although a completely different one.
I don’t want to be a shaman – as in, professionally shaman. I’m not sure I want to be a shaman at all. I just want to be in touch with my power animal and spirit guides that I have connected with (and will connect with).
But – I do know that being a shaman can be very different things. I’m not sure that I am a healer, and I don’t want to be. But perhaps I could be a storytelling shaman.
I’m not sure why, all of a sudden, this has become present in my mind. Is it time? I’ve known about this for quite a while, but since I don’t know what to do with it, I haven’t engaged much in it. Perhaps it is time to engage. I need to start practising my yoga again, so I can use it to connect to my people. But I also need to perhaps slow down just a little, and let my body rest just a tiny bit more after chemo. While I do feel better than I did just couple of days ago, I still am tired and exhausted.
Coming out of chemo, I in some sense do feel like a child. Like the Fool, thinking in Tarot terms. I feel like I need to re-build my life again, thus choosing which parts to add into the mix. Considering who I am and what I’m good at, I feel like creativity needs to take up a large part of my life – in one way or the other. And since it already does, that should be no problem.
I really, really need to think about this. Storytelling could be anything, really. How I choose to live, what I choose to wear, how I present myself to my reality, what I choose to do, how I choose to do it…
Magic can be anywhere.
And I want magic. I think I need to use my Tarot deck, if only to start choosing which energies I want to influence my life.
Yes, I think that’ll have to be my first project on the journey to re-build and re-create my life. I think that’s a wonderful idea, actually. Let’s create a visual map, and it’ll hopefully be easier to create. Perhaps even to manifest – and to knock on that door, so my guides let’s me in to start working again. Storytelling being one thing.