Letting go
I have so many dreams of how I want to live my life. I also have an equal amount of disappointments, since very few of said dreams has come true, or are likely to come true. The subject of this post – letting go, is heavily inspired by a friend who is going through a very tough time at the moment, and how this person has worked on releasing old ideas of how life should be.
Release.
Let go.
Same, same, but different. When I was younger, I was very far-sighted. Something I inherited from my mother – and something I learned to out-grow. Thankfully. It’s not very flattering to be far-sighted, is it?
But letting go of old wrongs isn’t exactly as letting go of dreams. I’ve had to let go of dreams before – it took me years and years to let go of the biggest dream of my life. I wanted to become a famous photographer, but because of my inability to sell what I do, combined with my (these days) non-existent stress tolerance, I had to give up that dream.
It sucked.
What I am learning right now is that perhaps I should let go of all those dreams, and instead of living in the not-manifested-dream, live in the present – and be happy with it. I’m not necessarily very good at it – although I have learned not to live in the past as much as I did when I was younger. I have yet to master the being present in the presence, rather than looking too far into the Dream, wanting and yearning.
It’s funny, sometimes, how just one word, sentence, image or situation, can awaken such insights. It’s not the first time, nor will it be the last. I think, and I hope, that this is something that will grow and actually last.
Which makes me think of my yoga practise. I’ve been practising for about 16 months now. For about 12 months, I’ve been curious on the history of yoga, and the more spiritual parts of it. And finally, my financial situation and list of priorities were in perfect alignment – so I’ve bought couple of books on the matter.
While I want to know about the history, the different yoga paths et cetera, I have still decided that I will do yoga my own way. As with absolutely everything else, I need it to be my own truth. But; I think and hope that by learning more about how to use it, I can use it to become more present. I’d really like to be present in my body, more than I am.
I also believe that my yoga practise will help me to release and let go of – well, whatever I want to let go of.
The intention with this post was to write more in depth about the letting go, but I am soooo tired. That’ll have to wait. But at least the thought process has begun, which is a good thing. I think it’ll serve me, learning the art of releasing and letting go.
I’ll have to continue on another day, though. As I read more about yoga, I’ll most likely write about that as well. Can’t wait to learn and understand more, and find a spiritual goal with it.
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again; bloody hell, I am so grateful to the person who challenged me to start practising yoga. ♥