Contact renewed
All my contact with the spirit world was cut off quite abruptly once my re-birthing process was done. I’ve been cut out ever since, which is for about six months or so. Until today. Today, when resting after my yoga practise, I found myself in an encounter with a snake.
Another snake than the one I’ve met before, though. Before, I’ve seen the snake head and neck, sort of – huge, just in front of me. This time, I saw a normal sized snake, slithering through the grass – and it came right towards me. At first, I was confused and wondered what the fuck I was met by a snake. To me, snakes in general represent deception, lies, danger, warning signs… but this snake didn’t feel like that at all. I was still a bit nervous, but I did listen.
This snake showed me how to be aware and present in the body, while at the same time expanding my mind and conciousness far outside of my body. At the same time, mind you. It was quite an interesting experience, and one I hope to master more than seconds at a time. It was all about being aware of the grass against my bare skin, how my muscles move, how my body feels – and how to press my conciousness further out, to pick up everything and anything around me. Like noise, for example. I found myself a bit imbalanced there – I heard loads of things, but it is easier for me to focus on one side of the body rather than covering 360 degrees simultaneously. Which is odd, since I pride myself on constantly seeing the world in spinning circles in 360 degrees, at all times.
The snake also showed me how to focus on a target – and I suppose that’s a really good thing, since I’ve found out that I’ll be going through chemo therapy and radiation to prevent any breast cancer further down the road. And the funny thing is that during my yoga practise, I did at one point focus very much on pulling myself through this up-coming experience by a rope held by future me on the side where I’m done with this (and where I already am, in my mind).
That focus actually reminds me of the eagle who showed me how to hunt from the air. His hunting style seems very similar to that of the snake, with of course the difference in location – one in the air, the other one on the ground. It is that intense focus on one very specific, well defined direction, and the movement forward onto that path.
There’s no say that this will be the opening of those doors for a longer period of time. I hope so. I’ve missed them, all of them. And I welcome meeting new ones, like I just did. But if the others feel that I still need to do this by myself, I’ll have to be fine with that. And I am. So far, I am amazed at how I handle this breast cancer situation. It’d be nice to have some spirits to hang out with, though, just for the fun of it. And to learn more.
But I think I actually may see more of them. It’ll be interesting to see if I do, but I hope I do. There are still so many things to learn, to understand and implement in my physical life. Like this concept of being present and aware (and those exact words is what I wanted to focus on this year, when choosing how to enter 2022).
.. and speaking of which; perhaps I should start thinking about how I want to enter 2023, and what to focus on that year. Health seems like a given, but surely there must be something more. The meaning of wealth, love, trust, healthy relationships, and so on.
I’ll have to get back on that one. At the moment, though, I’m just very pleased with meeting that snake, even though it scared me.