It’s been a while since I did this, and I thought I should give it a go. I am still, after six months (since my last chemo), suffering from fatigue – and I am getting sick and tired of it. I find that I function differently these days compared to before all the treatments, and that makes me a bit sad.
The first thing I am grateful for today, is that one of the things I’ve been working on through my yoga practise, has fallen into place during my treatments. That is; unifying body, mind, psyche and soul. We are now one – four quarter pillars, creating one beautiful unity.
That’s quite something.
The second thing may seem a bit shallow, but I am so very, very grateful that – while the length is too short, I still do have hair, and it’s growing (quite rapidly). My self-image is very important to me, and when I lost my hair after the first chemo.. that sucked. About ten days ago, I dyed my hair for the first time since it began growing back, and I am much happier with this hair colour, than my natural.
The third thing I am grateful for, is the constant flow of money. Sure, I have a list of priorities that never ends and I can’t keep up with, but for one reason or the other, the money keeps coming. At least, the money keeps coming, which means I can at least move forward ant-step by ant-step.
The fourth thing I am immensely grateful for, is that all these treatments are behind me. While being in the midst of it, it felt like it would never end, that I’d gotten stuck in that hell. But here I am, having six months and ten days since I recieved my last chemo treatment.
That is really something.
The fifth thing I am grateful for, is that I’ve been able to take loads of time in solitude. I’ve spent this summer pretty much on my own. I haven’t really spoken to anyone (well, yes, I have – but not much and not often), and I’ve been quite introverted. It has been, and still is, very important for me. I am, however, also grateful for the fact I am starting to feel like being a bit more social. We’ll see how that goes.
The last thing to be grateful for today, is that I am about to go to bed. There, Boyo’s waiting for me. Molly will want to have her goodnight cuddles. It’s raining outside. My blanket is very fluffy. I am going to sleep so well. ♥
