Let’s do another, just for the fun of it. Reasonably, it should be possible to fill another post with gratitude. I really could use seeing some light, so let’s get started.
I’d like to repeat my gratitude for the flow of money. I’ll say this; I wouldn’t mind it to increase, but I am grateful for what I have. While slow, I can still choose to prioritize certain things – those most needed at the moment. The list is neverending, however, and learning to manifest stronger means to live by is a goal, for sure.
Another thing I am grateful for is how I am learning to insist on my boundaries, even to myself. I am currently thinking of the adolescent dog (Isidor) who I cared for couple of days a few weeks back. His human asked me if I could help again next week, and I said no. My heart is breaking for so many reasons, but I also feel that Isidor is the kind of dog where I could be way too emotionally invested – and I don’t want that. Not when my emotional investment would get me nowhere. So, I set a boundary, and I am so grateful that I did.
What might seem a bit silly, is that I managed to do my yoga practise a bit earlier today. Since chemo treatments, I am experiencing quite strong resistance to practise, which is highly annoying. Especially since I know just how good it feels when I’m done, regardless of how much resistance there was before I get there. Today, I didn’t even have to force myself to do it, and I am so grateful for those days.
My new tattoo that was made one week ago, today, is yet another thing I am grateful for. It cost a lot of money, but it’s so worth it. I’ve wanted another tattoo for a long time, and once I learned about the chemo I promised myself to get a tattoo to celebrate once I was done. Now, I am done with it, and I managed to get myself that tattoo. I am also incredibly happy with how it turned out. ♥
I am, if reluctantly and hesitantly, building my trust that things will work out. I have spent lots of money this month – on that list of priorities, and while I do feel a bit nervous that I’ll run out of money, I refuse to believe anything else but – it will work out. If nothing else, I am rich in that which I’ve bought, and money-wise… it will work out.
Lastly for today, I am also grateful for my ability to read and understand myself – and to evolve. I realized a long time ago that how I have evolved for the last few years, is in my own, secure bubble of reality. I have no idea how I’d work or function in a relationship – and for so long, I’ve rejected the idea that I would even want one. But I am beginning to see that perhaps I do, after all. But, and this is a somewhat laughing matter, that’s where it stops.
I have no idea of how/where to find a man that’d suit me. 😀
